I Make Sense: A Mantra for Depression
The truths and exhortations that I share on social media are frequently ideas that have encouraged my own heart. This one, "I make sense", becomes my mantra during episodes of depression, especially during the winter months.
At times like this the tasks of a typical day can feel overwhelming, even extra sleep doesn't seem like enough, and it's easy to forget that this low season will end.
It helps to keep in mind that I make sense and I've survived this before. I also appreciate reminders that it's okay not to be okay. I try to focus on doing the next thing and honoring my efforts by stating that what I've done is enough.
I'm challenged in new ways by walking through this mental valley with my daughter being a year-and-a-half old. Sometimes I cry and she has learned to say "Mami sad?" and then give me hugs and kisses.
I'm so grateful to share those moments with her and to model sadness. I hope that she will accept her own sadness when it comes, and know that Daddy and I are willing to walk through it with her too.
The challenge is to keep showing up authentically when I know my tears will be noticed and will affect my most beloved ones. But I see that Bee is learning and growing by sharing my experience of depression. She is affected in meaningful and healthy ways.
If you're walking through your own mental valley this season, I'm thinking of you and praying for you. Please reach out to me if you could use a friend. We are not alone.